when i come undone.. i am done.

todae was a bad dae.

rite fr da beginning.. up till da ending..

i left wifout sayin a word.. not to da monster.. not to my frens.. sigh..

i am mentally and emotionally done.

its scary to noe hw affected i m deep within.. i noe da frustrations, disbelief and fears.. yet im unable to release da emotions and pent-up anger wif tears dat used to flow soo easily.. and dis spells trouble..

i have not cried over werk fer months.. one of my colleagues even hadda assure me dat aft i cool down and let it all out when im hm, i'd be bk to normal.. i even received a "friendship" sms fr him, which i appreciate, of coz.. well, i am hm nw.. and i am cool.. but i am unable let em all out.. i wonder if its coz im completely numb nw..

my parents asked me bout my "bad dae" over dinner.. of coz dey knew sumtingy was not rite wif their princess when i sat thru da entire car ride in mute mode.. my dad even had to turn bk a few times juz to make sure i hadnt faint fr hunger (i ate chickie salad fer lunch), or was accidentally flung outta da car when it was in motion.. all i remembered saying was.. "she's crazee todae.. i wanna quit..".. my dad was shocked and wanted me to repeat myself.. but ultimately, he gave a resigned sigh when i ignored his request.. surprisingly.. he did not sae anitingy else.. perhaps he too, realize dat it is time fer departure..

baby feels dat if i m no longer learning anitingy on da job.. i sld seek greener pastures.. im nearly 1.5yrs on da job, and despite da several monetary increments, i have not received as much autonomy in decision making as i noe i am capable of.. i perpetually have werk left undone becoz i have to constantly wait.. Wait.. and WAIT.. waiting fer da monster to finish all her complaining, fickle-minded decision making, temperamental outbursts, wasting all our precious time on her microscopic management style.. focusing on manipulating people.. tinking up long-winded and redundant excuses made up of fake lies, openly practicing escapism wif da endless phone calls and meetings.........

tok bout prioritizing, being professional, organized.. and responsible.. dis are all da traits u try to instill in me (and ur staff).. but unfortunately, u r not a blardy gd example to follow.. u lack so terribly in dis traits urself and i can freakin list tens of examples under each of the "good" traits u lack.. so wad if u haf XX no. of yrs of experience?? quantity does not equate to quality.. tink bout da no. of staff dat has left da company due to ur authoritative and measly existence.. if dat is proof dat ur da "great" boss u tink u r.. tink again.. in case u haf not learnt dis.. u may be wrong.. in fact, more times den u've ever admitted..

sigh.. hw i wish i haf da balls to sae all dis to u in frnt of ur face.. maybe i'll print dis out and submit it when i tender.. aft all, i reali dun tink i'd ever cee u again aft i leave..

SIGH.. if onli it wasnt dis hard to bid farewell to da best comrades and friends i haf wif me nw.. battling against our common enemy dae in, dae out.. becoz of u.. we are miserable everydae.. you reali are a microscopic bacteria..

All above all.. YOU SUCK. (and i hope u realize.. and ADMIT dat somedae.)